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having looked at myself for 300 hours
i was asked whether i wish to remain faithful
to my own idiocy
i said yes i do
thought about it
and repeated: yes i do
in an attempt to gain insight into the psyche, one can seek, find and even read its system files. get annoyed by the sloppy contents. find that those who wrote them can no longer edit. make amends – only to find them reverted after a handful of sleeps.
the mind’s system files, up in the dim windows of the subconscious. re-read them, pick at the poor grammar and missing commas, get bored.
years go by.
ding dong! science now allows us to outsmart our own brains, bodies and circumstances. if one can believe that their type is not their type. that the good things are well-deserved, the bad things are incidental. that the big other is a total babe. then, surely.
the light will go on when it’s dark and off when it’s bedtime.
one has to put a bridge over own psyche and walk the path to a version of oneself they would have been, if the bad things never happened. stand in its spot, soak it in.
the cool happy club will consider one’s application.
if one finds themself here, they must’ve been extra persistent, for they got to the last step of healing. not everyone makes it. in the last step, one lovingly betrays oneself, lovingly ignores their intuitions, and does what a happy, healthy person would do. being one’s own assertive adult, cajoling oneself into building a canonically safe & good life.
taking things literally isn’t a virtue, but neither is it a vice.
one must give it a chance: go on dates with people one isn’t attracted to, because they have a secure attachment style(see if one can make it insecure). make sure to send them a hearty apology upon recognition of own disinterest. repeat until in love.
or
one can stick with their studied wreck of a psyche, and make science sad.
i was asked whether i wish to remain faithful
to my own idiocy
i said yes i do
thought about it
and repeated: yes i do
in an attempt to gain insight into the psyche, one can seek, find and even read its system files. get annoyed by the sloppy contents. find that those who wrote them can no longer edit. make amends – only to find them reverted after a handful of sleeps.
the mind’s system files, up in the dim windows of the subconscious. re-read them, pick at the poor grammar and missing commas, get bored.
years go by.
ding dong! science now allows us to outsmart our own brains, bodies and circumstances. if one can believe that their type is not their type. that the good things are well-deserved, the bad things are incidental. that the big other is a total babe. then, surely.
the light will go on when it’s dark and off when it’s bedtime.
one has to put a bridge over own psyche and walk the path to a version of oneself they would have been, if the bad things never happened. stand in its spot, soak it in.
the cool happy club will consider one’s application.
if one finds themself here, they must’ve been extra persistent, for they got to the last step of healing. not everyone makes it. in the last step, one lovingly betrays oneself, lovingly ignores their intuitions, and does what a happy, healthy person would do. being one’s own assertive adult, cajoling oneself into building a canonically safe & good life.
taking things literally isn’t a virtue, but neither is it a vice.
one must give it a chance: go on dates with people one isn’t attracted to, because they have a secure attachment style
or
one can stick with their studied wreck of a psyche, and make science sad.
thursday evening culture section
Ai Weiwei moved back to China, as a consequence of getting cancelled in Europe for his Israel/Palestine posts. he did too much free speech.
he said:
‘Incorrect opinions should be especially encouraged. If free expression is limited to the same kind of opinions, it becomes an imprisonment of expression. Freedom of speech is about different voices, voices different from ours.’
something to chew on. i agree – but above all, i think opinions are just overrated. in my opinion, personally. that’s what i’d say.
if they shut down social media and let us simmer down for a couple years, maybe then we could un-camp politically and see difference without overheating. and for now, Ai Weiwei’s view seems very romantic. i wonder why he decided to go back to China though, didn’t they want to prosecute him?
on a similar note, Prue Leith left Bake Off, and that came with a revelation that she voted for Brexit and her son is in Reform UK. and now i don’t know if i like Bake Off anymore.
upd: i’m feeing retrospectively put off Bake Off, but i don’t know if a fully socialist/libdem/green bakeoff would be worth watching. maybe green. though they’d just cancel production and put the money into nature
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Ai Weiwei moved back to China, as a consequence of getting cancelled in Europe for his Israel/Palestine posts. he did too much free speech.
he said:
‘Incorrect opinions should be especially encouraged. If free expression is limited to the same kind of opinions, it becomes an imprisonment of expression. Freedom of speech is about different voices, voices different from ours.’
something to chew on. i agree – but above all, i think opinions are just overrated. in my opinion, personally. that’s what i’d say.
if they shut down social media and let us simmer down for a couple years, maybe then we could un-camp politically and see difference without overheating. and for now, Ai Weiwei’s view seems very romantic. i wonder why he decided to go back to China though, didn’t they want to prosecute him?
on a similar note, Prue Leith left Bake Off, and that came with a revelation that she voted for Brexit and her son is in Reform UK. and now i don’t know if i like Bake Off anymore.
upd: i’m feeing retrospectively put off Bake Off, but i don’t know if a fully socialist/libdem/green bakeoff would be worth watching. maybe green. though they’d just cancel production and put the money into nature
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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weekend viewing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6wysGU66fs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6wysGU66fs
YouTube
Why Don't You Sing Opera Like A NORMAL Person?
You know what? I think it's a fair question.
📚 S O U R C E S
-NIH: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3741536/
Hopkins Medicine: https://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/health/wellness-and-prevention/keep-your-brain-young-with-music
Pfizer: https://www.p…
📚 S O U R C E S
-NIH: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3741536/
Hopkins Medicine: https://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/health/wellness-and-prevention/keep-your-brain-young-with-music
Pfizer: https://www.p…
did a whole lot of chores, a 30 min calisthenics workout and two hours of complicated cooking as a way of procrastinating over HMRC tax return deadline, only to find out i don’t need to file this year
yay
yay
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interesting results 👀
i’ve re-watched Mulholland Drive recently, so i’ll be queueing up Wild at Heart and The Straight Story, thankyou chat
i’ve re-watched Mulholland Drive recently, so i’ll be queueing up Wild at Heart and The Straight Story, thankyou chat
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“Fascism thus dresses itself in revolutionary clothing while doing nothing to dismantle capitalist relations of production. Through its narrative of racial redemption and its invocation of mystical themes, fascism gives the masses a powerful psychological outlet for their economic frustrations: “the chance to express themselves” while “preserving property,” the logical result being “the introduction of aesthetics into political life” just as Benjamin said. Fascism never gives the masses any real power; it only feeds into their racial ressentiment, which is manufactured by the bourgeoisie as an aesthetic distraction. […] Fascism represented for Benjamin the application to the sphere of war itself the principles of l’art pour l’art (“art for art’s sake”), a 19th century bourgeois aesthetic doctrine that upheld the absolute autonomy of art.”
– Eric Huang via Substack
– Eric Huang via Substack
as a teenager in my 30s, i am a big fan of this vibe
the mix is also pretty good
https://www.nts.live/shows/mi-el/episodes/mi-el-16th-january-2026
the mix is also pretty good
https://www.nts.live/shows/mi-el/episodes/mi-el-16th-january-2026